Say you’ll be mine, i will make this earth heaven for you, say you’ll be everything i need and i will make your life a bed of roses. Say you will be my beginning and my end and baby, I will make you feel like the luckiest girl in the world. Say you will be my gold, I will treasure you till the end of the world. I will make you glad you belong to me, I will make your life a bed of roses
I will be your life, your love and your peace, I will give you everything you need and more. I will make you proud and all the girls jealous of you, just say you will be mine and baby, I can give you all of these and more. I will be the lover that spins your world around, I will be the best friend that you need, I will make my heart a home for you, I will make your life a bed of roses
No feeling can be better than knowing you will belong to me forever and ever. No joy can be compared to what I feel cos I know soon I will be in your arms as yours forever. Nothing compared to this joy in my heart because your love is all that I ever need and I know, soon, I’ll be in your arms as yours forever. Say you’ll be mine, and I will make you happy, I will make your life a bed of roses.
Say you’ll be mine, say you’ll love me forever and ever, say that I’ll be the centre of your universe, say that I am all you need and will ever want and baby, you can have all of me, you will be the key to my joy, you will be my morning and my night, you’ll be the only one I want to run to every minute of the day. Just say you will be mine, I will make this earth heaven for you, I will make your life a bed of roses.
Mine to hold, mine to love, mine forever and ever, mine till eternity, mine till death do us part and beyond, mine, mine, mine… just say you’ll be mine, I will make your life a bed of roses…
The tears had stopped but my heart kept beating wildly in my chest. It was as if a heavy stone had been placed there, cutting off the air from my lungs. I was breathless. Here was the most wonderful man every girl would kill to have singing on his knees, with the most beautiful ring I had ever seen, asking me to marry him. How could I say no to him? How could I tell him that I would never be good for him? How could I tell him nothing had changed and would never change, that the past still held me bound in its clutches and I would never be free? I looked at him and felt warm liquid trickling down my cheeks. It was supposed to be the best day of my life but people like me do not deserve the best, had my mother not always told me that? Had she not told me that joy was a luxury no one could afford? Had she not said sadness lurked at every nook and cranny of these earth and happiness could have no chance? Had she not told me that I was never going to be good for anybody like she was never going enough for my father and the men that came after him? Had she not told me that I should always prepare for the worst, that was all I was going to get? Damn It. How could I believe I would ever be happy, how? I could not take It anymore, I ran to the bathroom blindly, knocking everything in my wake. I locked the door, shutting him out. Ope deserved more, the more I would never be able to give him.
“Baby, talk to me, please. Just open the door, please. Choc, please open this door. We can talk about whatever it is that’s making you cry. Please, babes, I hate it when you shut me out? Let me in, we can sort this out. Choc, Choc, open the door”.
I sighed heavily and slipped to the floor when she did not answer me nor opened the door. I stared at the ring in my hand and wondered what It was exactly that was making her cry. Maybe I had hurt her but I was not sure how. I was so confused, I wished she would just open the door and tell me what what was going on with her. Only if she knew how much her silence was breaking my heart into shards. I wanted to hold her in my arms, look into her eyes and tell her everything would be fine. I would cry with her just to show her that her misery was mine also and was willing to do anything to make her happy. I called out to her again, begging her to just say something. She opened the door and my beautiful chocolatey goodness looked like a total stranger. Her eyes were red and filled with so much anguish, I wanted to pull her in my arms and tell her everything would be fine. Her hair was a mess and she looked like old and tired. I reached out to pull her in my arms but she stepped back.
“Choc, what is It? You are scaring me”, I said in my gentlest voice.
She looked at me and started sobbing. Her tears were like a hot knife to my heart. I wanted badly to comfort her but she would not let me, she kept pulling back.
“Babes, just tell me what It is, okay? We can make this go away”
“Ope, you can’t make anything go away. You can’t!”
“Okay, just tell me what it is actually making you cry. Did I do something wrong?”
“No, you’ve been wonderful. You can do no wrong”
“So, what is it? I hate to see you this sad”
“I don’t deserve you. I am sorry, I can’t marry you”
I was so shocked, it felt as if my heart had stopped beating.
Song: Bed of Roses written by the inkheart…
Written by Dako. A. Temitope